It is what it is.

Crap. it is me. totally given out myself in my room for 2 days. I really can be a security of my house. 2days, I'm wasting it like not a big deal of my time and I'll start regretting it by tomoro when school starts. oh ya~ it is what it was. Karma.. I'm a quite a buddhist, ya know.. so, of course I'll be blaming myself in the end of it.

by the way, I'm playing some makeover in between the days. feeling want to share it out the photo but embarrassed bout it. but, still will sharing it out coz I'm just feeling to. haha~~  

 

before

after

it is a distance between before and after. firstly, will be my eyes as they r small and sepet. everyone acknowledged it. secondly, I'll be giving the credit to the clothes. it helped much I confirmed. so, ya, there is no ugly woman, it just to be a lazy woman. but, who can stand to wake up early to make herself nice every morning. well, I can't for this period as a student. Being ordinary is just good enough for me.    

 this sheet of article is goonnaa be long as I'm wrapping up all I want in a sheet. Passion, passion. this dilemma came back for sure. what is the point of I'm feeling aspire-less in things I'm done and not done.  bravery is a subtopic of it. am i will couragely(this word doesn't exist) let it go. 

this whole week will be a screw up week. presentation, assignment, and assignment*** a whole bunch of it. and I'm posting my post at 3.30a.m and feeling like nut coz today is school day!!! things are getting more harder now. Strive for it or just let it go. or just be last minute it'll be.. ahh.. Crapingg..  

夜里

一个人的夜晚，你会想什么呢？
我会回想。
会想念热热的汤~
想我烦恼的事~
我会听歌。
听感动我的歌，然后默默下雨。
后来，默默安慰，一切都会很好~
想家，想朋友，想家里的床。
常常追连续剧，追到不够睡~
上facebook，想看动人的文章。
不虚假，真实的文章~
想想自己变多少。
有没有变成双面人~
想坦荡荡的做人！

矛盾。

人是矛盾的。我的意思是指我啦！功课堆的像山一样高，知道是该做了，可我就偏偏懒得做。到最后，就一晚不睡做功课。然后就后悔，如果我早一点做，结果一定会更好。然后，又肯定的对自己说：下次不要last minute了！！然后又到了另一个学期，事情反复的发生多一次。
人的天性吧，遇到困难就想逃。我也好想。可是哪能呢！所以我会不爽有的逃避的人。。哈哈。。变态死了~~ 想是想啊，但不是逃避。是去走走散散心。大了啊，不能和小孩一样，就只能面对。

Idol!! Mark Zuckerberg.

Who is this freak guy hah?? No offence. I can said he is totally freak since he been able to do the all coding and built up Facebook. He is a computer scientist, a software developer, a CEO , a president and a billionaire.. I am not his follower actually, until, I done some research regarding him about Facebook. Surprisingly, I'm bonded to him. Wee~~  

 the man in the picture, it's him. Well，to know him better. I watched the Social Network. Good film. Perfectly, truly describe who he is in a more visual way.. but, Facebook was initially created because he want to success in front of his ex-gf.. that is just so Wow!
he also been chosen as the people of the year by Time mag. and guess how much he own??... 41billion.. US Dollar.. the value of Facebook on 2010. which, make him the youngest billionaire on the world.. Woohoo~~

His mission: making the world open. Make me admire him more~ Man with vision. everything possible through Facebook, through internet. the greatest invention in this century. he will be more n more success n  influencing in future with Facebook.

新年啊！ It's CNY！！

根地咬的第一个嘉年华！ Keningau 1st CNY Carnival！

我的新年在匆匆忙忙中度过。不过，最重要是和家人一起过的。平凡，简单，但，是幸福，是温暖的。今年，两个愿望实现了。第一，是我终于有一有牌子的AhLong包包了。。hehe~ 第二，梦寐以求的DSLR也有了。Yes！知足啊~

羊年吗~~ hihiY(^_^)Y. 好像它的运程还蛮behbai哦。。 哈哈。桃花会不错，但，小人要防啊！最后，祝大家快乐平安，女的美，男的帅，荷包满满！($ _ $)

My CNY was celebrated in a rush, not holiday mood. Still, I am grateful because I'm celebrating it with my family. the celebration was simple but meaningful. One family gathered together only once a year. Yahh.. It's satisfied me. this year is a dream come true year.. haha.. let me tell'ya y.. 1st, I finally got my a bit branded "Ah Long" bag.. hehe. 2nd, the DSLR that I dreamed day and night, I finally have it. but, it still at home coz I'm not the one that buying it. ╰(￣▽￣)╮..

My zodiac is meakkk... Goat.. and the luck seem not bad this year!  Yeah!! make a year Geng! At last, I wished everyone happy happy, healthy healthy, girls more lenglui, boys more liangzhai n wallet full full!  hah!冏rz

我爱你，不容易。 Hard to say: ”I LOVE u."

前天，说着要致电到家的我，犹疑不决。如果是普通的对话，我爽快得打。但，要说出：“我爱你",的确不容易。电话打了。聊聊最近发生那些事啊~但，脑里回想着我和妈之间发生的点点滴滴。从以前我是anak mami，到叛逆（算吗？），到现在很珍惜。好多好多的画面回想了起来。我感触很多。我谈谈吐吐了很久。“咪，我...” “咪，...” “我...” 就是说不出来。可是，那一刻，我真很想让妈知道我，姐，妹，和哥都是幸福的。最后，我鼓起勇气说：“咪，谢谢您把我生下来。”眼泪就在眼眶里打滚着。那是我对妈咪最真心的话。妈有点吓到，可能我们都从没表达过吧。。当我感觉到泪水快要掉下来的时候，妈的反映尽然是：“ehhh，你的DSLR还要买吗？” Huhh。。我哭笑不得。。我爱你，没勇气说出来。但我相信孩子们的心里都很大声的呐喊着：“妈，我爱你！”。

Yesterday, I said that I'm gonna call my mum. Fingers felt like heavy when dialing it. I call millions of times to home, never felt the finger heavy like this before. Is it because, I'm gonna say I love u to mum..?? Never realize it is Hard.. I called. like usual, we talked about daily's thingy. "What do u eat today？” “Have u take ur bath??” Things like that repeated each time we talk.. but, this kind of conversation makes me feel home.. keep on flash backing the memories that we had together.. From I'm a mummy's girl, to a rebellious girl(is it?), and now to a girl that appreciated. I felt a lot. when I trying to speak it out: "Mi, I..." "Mi,..." "I..." just can't say it out. but, I really wanted my mum to know how appreciate am I to be her daughter. So, at last , I said:" Mi, thanks for bringing me to this world."

Miss mom and dad!

Something happened today. My friend's mom go to heaven already. Me and this friend don't really have a close relationship. but, I can feel the sadness. Hard to describe it. It wasn't like I really cry but something stirring in the heart. I never have the experience, someone that I love will leave me, but I think it is unbearable. Keep on remembering mom and dad, I miss them so much! well. family bonding is special. At younger age, I always think I can be independent if I want to, I can live on without others help. it is naive. Now, I realized how much I depend on them. I never tell my mom/dad face to face that i love her/him. Maybe I should do that next time. Scared if they leaving me without knowing how much I am grateful to be their daughter. or I should just call them now... yup, call ING...