bah... marathon gila o..

Me and my best friend-Meang are currently at Sibu. n we had a crazy marathon yesterday. Since, we came to Sarawak with no specific plan, so everything go spontaniously. I think we might have walk 4 more or less than 5km, under the brightly hot shining sun!!! even sunblock is not the prevention step for it. we didn't noticed it until we got back to hotel.. mcm itam2 then, made the comparison with d part dat cover with shirt. Walaooo ehh... haha~~ shocked!! even my face pun eneven suda d colour.. my nose n dahi itam2 de..(manglish).. haha

talk back to the title, I called it marathon gila coz we hang out from 10a.m to 3.30p.m... less gila than we hang out at Kuching but It's a new experiance as we go out from the town area to a more district area. we used bus to go to places but... stil need to walk a long distance to the place. with no map about the area, we berani2 go.. It's FUN!! haha~~ will share the details after going back to Keningau. BEST!! Cella, if u r reading this, then u will regret coz not coming with us!! haha~~

The Ethics in IT.

If u had read today's newspaper, then, u must had known the guy that named himself Anonymous. Quite a mystery, giving himself such a name. of course he doesn't want anybody to know him coz he is committing an IT crime. He hacked a big number of our country(Malaysia) government website. this action cause some of the website was close and some are taken by. the motive is clear. he want to challenge government. Reason?? our government have a big authority to screen the pupil's freedom of speaking in the cyber world. this can be proven as there were blogger always been capture due to some sensitive issues that they write on their blog.

So. here are the issues. Should government screen the majority website of people in Malaysia, in a way that block off the freedom of speaking in our country ?? Another issue, in order to notice the government, should the guy-Anonymous hacks the government website??

I would like to talk some of my opinion in this issue when I saw the headline of the news today. I remembered     the first sem of my course, I've had taken Ethics and Professionalisme in IT. In one of the class, we've had mentioned about the screening issue in cyber world. and I did gave my opinion on this issue that i had noticed the authority of government in restricting the freedom of speaking in cyber world. majority users of internet have thoughts on some agenda that happened in our country but scared to talk bout it due to afraid. Afraid of what?? well, let's refer to our imagination.

Hacking is not appropriate. I don't support it! Because that is basic ethic in life. U don't disturb other's life. there is always alternative ways if u want to notice others bout their action. hacking is not the way.

this is the first time i'm writing on something serious. coz as an IT student, I have to share out something when it related to my field and of course it's a good topic to share to. by the way, it's time for government to improve the security of government website.

Syok Sendiri - Phone calling Expression!

Hi everyone!! haha, today I'm a bit high.. Why?? Coz I'm just feeling so good!! Smile, and let your's smile infect another.. make this world a world full of smile and gratitude. (too positive-I'm sot-sot liao)... hehehe
just b'coz I'm feeling so damn good, I tend to sot-sot a bit.. while I surfing d internet... My craziness keluar.  I double click my webcam n d process of SS(syok sendiri) keluar. If u guys don't really know what is SS, let me explain to you!
According to AugustDictionary.com (dis web don't exist, it only exist in my blog. kekeke~), SS or Syok Sendiri has several explanation:
1. is a process of taking picture where u enjoy it without any care of ur surrounding. ( macam live in ur own world la)
2. may repeatedly take pic with a same pose. (actually it's d same, but what to do, we only want d most fabulous 1)
3. take d pic from different angle and lighting ( professional photographer pun kalah) so that your 's face look small and photogenic.

back to d topic, after sharing d makeover photo, my face becoming more thick.. continue want to share my photo..(walaupun x laku) hehe... so, I'm came out with d first series of syok sendiri which I named August.SS-Phone Calling Expression!

Happy ^^

Shock - good news!

mad - unbelievable.

sad / cry (tp xda airmata, haha)

deeply concentrate hearing / thinking

dumb receiving call - idiotic pose. wahahaha

I know my expression not dat good yet, so, please, do leave a comment so I can improve my content.. and lastly my 100% SS resulted photo - 1. u c d eye's expression. (totally absorbed in my own world), 2. d angle of my face. Sengaja senget so dat my face will look smaller.. haha! Everyone, please enjoy ur own SS!! n smile brightly!! ^^

SS ing...

Penyakit malas.

Saya memang pemalas. tapi time study week ni, lagi la malas.. haha.. baju malas cuci. nasi malas masak. buku malas baca!! satu ja saya rajin, hehe, tidur!! pengsan~~ satu lagi!! ONline!! haha.. kan ada perkataan ON sana, itulah saya on ja~~ heehe.. 

lama saya x tulis blog, bila mau tulis ja, teringat peristiwa tu(post yg lalu).. kadang2 memang terfikir pasal tu.. bila nampak ahli keluarga dia, really wanted to comfort them, tapi last2 diam-diam ja saya.. fainted.. (tp sebenarnya malas tulis, byk ja alasan..)

menurut saya la kan, malas tu sebenarnya 1 penyakit jangkitan virus. sebab kenapa?? sebab dia tiada ubat untuk diubati, hanya antibody sendiri ja yang boleh lawan penyakit ni.. hehe~~ macam doctor pula.. tapi batul-batul ni.. sia xda tambirang(tipu)..

bila tengok blog urang lain, memang byk gambar. post saya cikit ja. why?? itu sabab saya malas.. ^^ xda obat mau kasi baik ni penyakit, mau palan-palan(perlahan-lahan) tambah kuat saya pnya antibody.. syok juga tulis bahasa melayu ni, terkeluar melayu-sabah saya.. haha!

My childhood friend..

I got a really important presentation today. and I'm preparing for it. then, my best friend / another childhood friend called me.. she doesn't usually call me in the afternoon, I'm sensing something important happened. I am regretting for picking up that phone call. like I don't want to accept the reality. she told me that my our childhood friend was passed away. due to suicidal. what!!?? Impossible..

then I'm confirming it by calling home. my brother said, ya, it happened, and it is on the news.. I was quite rejecting it. impossible, it is impossible. then, my presentation was going not to well.. and I'm frustrated with the news. I slept when I got back to hostel. and I don't dare to find the news bout it.

11.30p.m., mu mom called. I knew she want to talk bout it and I have to pick it up. talking to mom just make me remember all the memories that happened past then. I remember we were playing soil after rain, watching cartoons together... why?? just why?? that is not the solution of it.

with the curiosity, I googled it. and I found his blog. he mentioned bout an hypocrite asshole and post that resembles his suicidal. but, nobody noticed it.

 In this life, there is nothing that you hoped will actually come true as you imagine…

All the frustration I had in these past few weeks had merge my body and soul for the longest period of time since for so long…I only hoped that this will not become my breaking point and I can continue to Contribute..But as matters worsens, I may do things in a suicidal compulsion…I just hoped it won’t be too quickly..Anyway.. anyone that reads this.. If I finally departed.. I wish to make sure my family knows EVERYTHING there is to know about me… Even if it was the worst of me.. that was who I am…God would send me to hell for all that I’ve done but who cares when it was too late anyway…so that will be my good bye and I hoped it wouldn’t be soon but not too long as well… Living is HARD… 

life is precious. he mentioned that he want his family to know who he was. but, can they really accept the fact that their son / brother that they love leaving them.. he good in his study and was the holding a position in his faculty. could it be the asshole pushing him..?? living is real hard, that is life all about. turn back the time so it won't end like this.. reading the articles and news make me feel uncomfortable. I don't want them to criticizes it.

  this thing will mark in our heart. what should I response when I meet his family.. It is like a thorn that stay in our heart and no one want to mention it. pray that his family will heal from this.. and others, Please, dying is not gonna fix the problems.  get help by talk to someone.

It is what it is.

Crap. it is me. totally given out myself in my room for 2 days. I really can be a security of my house. 2days, I'm wasting it like not a big deal of my time and I'll start regretting it by tomoro when school starts. oh ya~ it is what it was. Karma.. I'm a quite a buddhist, ya know.. so, of course I'll be blaming myself in the end of it.

by the way, I'm playing some makeover in between the days. feeling want to share it out the photo but embarrassed bout it. but, still will sharing it out coz I'm just feeling to. haha~~  

 

before

after

it is a distance between before and after. firstly, will be my eyes as they r small and sepet. everyone acknowledged it. secondly, I'll be giving the credit to the clothes. it helped much I confirmed. so, ya, there is no ugly woman, it just to be a lazy woman. but, who can stand to wake up early to make herself nice every morning. well, I can't for this period as a student. Being ordinary is just good enough for me.    

 this sheet of article is goonnaa be long as I'm wrapping up all I want in a sheet. Passion, passion. this dilemma came back for sure. what is the point of I'm feeling aspire-less in things I'm done and not done.  bravery is a subtopic of it. am i will couragely(this word doesn't exist) let it go. 

this whole week will be a screw up week. presentation, assignment, and assignment*** a whole bunch of it. and I'm posting my post at 3.30a.m and feeling like nut coz today is school day!!! things are getting more harder now. Strive for it or just let it go. or just be last minute it'll be.. ahh.. Crapingg..  

夜里

一个人的夜晚，你会想什么呢？
我会回想。
会想念热热的汤~
想我烦恼的事~
我会听歌。
听感动我的歌，然后默默下雨。
后来，默默安慰，一切都会很好~
想家，想朋友，想家里的床。
常常追连续剧，追到不够睡~
上facebook，想看动人的文章。
不虚假，真实的文章~
想想自己变多少。
有没有变成双面人~
想坦荡荡的做人！