马来西亚，54岁生日快乐。

  一直以来我不是很懂为何马来西亚人一定要分种族来办事情。我是沙巴人，在一个叫根底咬的镇的KG.Bingkor长大。这里没有严重的种族歧视，大家都以一个种族的身份交谈。很畅快很心安。我的身份有点特别。爷爷奶奶是天津人，很久以前从中国来便扎根在Papar的Ulu Kimanis。外公也是从中国来和外婆（沙巴的Kadazan族）结婚，所以妈妈是sino-native。就这样，我是有1/4土著血统的华人。

  我很庆幸我是在这环境长大。从爸爸那里，了解我们天津人的礼俗。从妈妈这里，了解沙巴土著的文化。对我来说这不矛盾，反而我是骄傲呢！每一个族群都有自己独特的文化，语言就是很好的例子。天津话说起来好多翘舌音（rrrrr...）sabah话确有有趣的单词。（例如：nakesirit, 肚子痛时不小心把大便拉在裤子上）那些字都好难在另种语言直接的翻译。虽然不会说天津话，但听懂难不倒我，虽然不完全懂土著的语言，但简单的交谈因该没问题！

 读完中学后，到了labuan的matriculation就读。从一个小世界到了一个比较大的世界。Labuan Matriculation College 集合了沙巴，砂劳越和纳闽的学生，完成一年的课程就能继续读大学。认识了可爱和亲的砂劳越人也认识了更多豪爽的沙巴人。我的3个室友是回教徒但那一年就像家人一起度过。同学有讲有笑，各别得种族完全不是问题。有点想念那时光啊！现在到了大学，到了更大的世界，接触的人是全马的人。感触好多。

        身为沙巴人，我一直都很骄傲。作为马来西亚人，一个马来西亚要做到！大家都说那时一句广告词但希望不久的未来是个马来西亚的真正标签。马来西亚，54岁生日快乐！！

19 19 19!!!

what a wonderful age at 19! I born in 29 august 1991..  still have 9 days before my birthday.. really don't want to admit it. how can I be tua so fast like dis.. haa.. just part of my self don't wish to end my 19 like this!! I really love this age.. not because my academic excellent at 19.. not because I finally traveled at 19.. not because I got my DSLR at 19.. 19 just give me a lot.. from mentally.. emo~ emo~ macam mau cry saja.. haha.. so much things that I insisted, became clear to me.. either chose it or leave it or hang more tight like koala on it.. ><

I am a more on me person.. others hardly can influence me except they realllllly close with me n they have my heart with them. ^^ but lately keep thinking that, right, it is d true me.. why peduli others thinks bout u.. I'm actually don't care la.. but can't be a cool heart people forever right, care bout ur surroundings k.. trying.. well, depend..

20 20 20!! mature mature mature!! taking serious with my life.. oh my! had I been serious with my life before.. I wonder. 20 also means I need to grow up, grow more more more up.. adults is not easy u know??! sometimes I don't understand them..  not like I'm rejecting 20 but 19 is just good. I mean real good. ::><:: ahhh.. my 19..

19 is my craziest year.. n I become crazy at this age too.. (with my family only. hehe)  my mum said: nah.. tgok dia, datang sot liao.. sorry la mum, I'm trying to make our home more hilarious. although u'll keep saying I'm bising or sot.. but u'guys will be missing me when I'm back to labuan.



I watched a movie, called 19.. glad I'm watch it when I'm 19, so much young inside it.. recommend to u all.. my 19, will be missing u. thank you so much for giving me all the things that I had met, making me appreciate my 19 much. 19 is imperfect and imperfect is perfect for 19!!

if u want to watch it can click here. enjoy it! feel it-19!

我-原则。

人的原则有时候坚持的很莫名，
人的原则有时候莫名是个坚持，
实上，
人操控原则还是原则操控人，
真的傻傻分不清楚。
听而不闻，
视而不见，
太多太多的事啦，
所谓的原则有时只是‘多来’，
满足了自尊感，
就是那样而已。

青葱-何韵诗

最近听到了一首歌词很有画面的歌。。这首歌在我电脑有段时间了，但没有仔细的听。。 词很符合现在和未来，我们对自己的期望。特别喜欢那句‘完美本来就包含瑕疵啊’~~。。 完美的不完美，是这意思吗？？ Enjoy it!!

詞：青峰
曲/編：pan
監：何秉舜@goomusic/hocc@goomusic

小時候說的話 你記得嗎
我們描述不遠的未來 要變成太陽月亮
你現在實現了嗎 還是跟我一樣
偶爾抱著沮喪睡著了嗎

我們都不知道 蔥會開花
只懂得欣賞每頓晚餐 永遠配角的綠光
人生從來沒答案 理想從來有偏差
完美本來就包含瑕疵啊

鏡子中 驕傲的臉龐 帶著些許憂傷
成熟外表下 純真的心沒變化
童年的幻想 長大後的尷尬
看清自己的模樣

如果再活一次 會怎麼樣
生命中走過的日子裡 想回到哪段時光
自己是一面鏡子 越細看越明白
就讓氣味在黃昏裡擴散

鏡子中 驕傲的臉龐 帶著些許憂傷
成熟外表下 純真的心沒變化
童年的幻想 長大後的尷尬
看清自己的模樣

鏡子中 微笑的臉龐 帶著些許昂揚
成熟內心中 默默地開滿了花
童年的玩耍 成長的不漂亮
都是自己的模樣

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9-lMyfBY-e0&feature=player_embedded#at=18

bah... marathon gila o..

Me and my best friend-Meang are currently at Sibu. n we had a crazy marathon yesterday. Since, we came to Sarawak with no specific plan, so everything go spontaniously. I think we might have walk 4 more or less than 5km, under the brightly hot shining sun!!! even sunblock is not the prevention step for it. we didn't noticed it until we got back to hotel.. mcm itam2 then, made the comparison with d part dat cover with shirt. Walaooo ehh... haha~~ shocked!! even my face pun eneven suda d colour.. my nose n dahi itam2 de..(manglish).. haha

talk back to the title, I called it marathon gila coz we hang out from 10a.m to 3.30p.m... less gila than we hang out at Kuching but It's a new experiance as we go out from the town area to a more district area. we used bus to go to places but... stil need to walk a long distance to the place. with no map about the area, we berani2 go.. It's FUN!! haha~~ will share the details after going back to Keningau. BEST!! Cella, if u r reading this, then u will regret coz not coming with us!! haha~~

The Ethics in IT.

If u had read today's newspaper, then, u must had known the guy that named himself Anonymous. Quite a mystery, giving himself such a name. of course he doesn't want anybody to know him coz he is committing an IT crime. He hacked a big number of our country(Malaysia) government website. this action cause some of the website was close and some are taken by. the motive is clear. he want to challenge government. Reason?? our government have a big authority to screen the pupil's freedom of speaking in the cyber world. this can be proven as there were blogger always been capture due to some sensitive issues that they write on their blog.

So. here are the issues. Should government screen the majority website of people in Malaysia, in a way that block off the freedom of speaking in our country ?? Another issue, in order to notice the government, should the guy-Anonymous hacks the government website??

I would like to talk some of my opinion in this issue when I saw the headline of the news today. I remembered     the first sem of my course, I've had taken Ethics and Professionalisme in IT. In one of the class, we've had mentioned about the screening issue in cyber world. and I did gave my opinion on this issue that i had noticed the authority of government in restricting the freedom of speaking in cyber world. majority users of internet have thoughts on some agenda that happened in our country but scared to talk bout it due to afraid. Afraid of what?? well, let's refer to our imagination.

Hacking is not appropriate. I don't support it! Because that is basic ethic in life. U don't disturb other's life. there is always alternative ways if u want to notice others bout their action. hacking is not the way.

this is the first time i'm writing on something serious. coz as an IT student, I have to share out something when it related to my field and of course it's a good topic to share to. by the way, it's time for government to improve the security of government website.

Syok Sendiri - Phone calling Expression!

Hi everyone!! haha, today I'm a bit high.. Why?? Coz I'm just feeling so good!! Smile, and let your's smile infect another.. make this world a world full of smile and gratitude. (too positive-I'm sot-sot liao)... hehehe
just b'coz I'm feeling so damn good, I tend to sot-sot a bit.. while I surfing d internet... My craziness keluar.  I double click my webcam n d process of SS(syok sendiri) keluar. If u guys don't really know what is SS, let me explain to you!
According to AugustDictionary.com (dis web don't exist, it only exist in my blog. kekeke~), SS or Syok Sendiri has several explanation:
1. is a process of taking picture where u enjoy it without any care of ur surrounding. ( macam live in ur own world la)
2. may repeatedly take pic with a same pose. (actually it's d same, but what to do, we only want d most fabulous 1)
3. take d pic from different angle and lighting ( professional photographer pun kalah) so that your 's face look small and photogenic.

back to d topic, after sharing d makeover photo, my face becoming more thick.. continue want to share my photo..(walaupun x laku) hehe... so, I'm came out with d first series of syok sendiri which I named August.SS-Phone Calling Expression!

Happy ^^

Shock - good news!

mad - unbelievable.

sad / cry (tp xda airmata, haha)

deeply concentrate hearing / thinking

dumb receiving call - idiotic pose. wahahaha

I know my expression not dat good yet, so, please, do leave a comment so I can improve my content.. and lastly my 100% SS resulted photo - 1. u c d eye's expression. (totally absorbed in my own world), 2. d angle of my face. Sengaja senget so dat my face will look smaller.. haha! Everyone, please enjoy ur own SS!! n smile brightly!! ^^

SS ing...