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not updating blog for a while.. too much stuffs messing in mind. a lot had happened though. forcing me to deal with stuufffss... now, is not the best condition of me. too busy with life's challenge. pain and happiness that make u realised you still breathing, gasping air to live. I don't even have the strength to give up. why should i? I need to show that i can bear with all these. i believe experience is the most valuable lesson in life. appaa... nomu nomu appaaa..  

Daddy, Mommy

My recent location is at Labuan International Terminal. Waiting my turn, of speedboat to get to Menumbok and finally home. a lot of people today since Chinese New Year 2012 is upcoming soon.

there's a family sit in front of me. don't know if they realised I know to speak chinese too.. A dad and mom was lecturing the young boy.. A freshboy of high school.. form1... the dad said: a boy ah, if teacher teach, u must concentrate.. Do u know the difference between sixteen and sixty??  U are clever but lazy lo... Ur shoes also need your mum to wash for u and u saying that u are not lazy... so on~~

not that I'm stalking. but, they were talking so loudddd...

Hearing it make me wonder, how much time did the father even share with his son. not so many i think. the mom looks like overprotecting her son. talking about the teacher doesn't give her son chance to take Mandarin class and she's grabbed her phone away to call the teacher..

a dramatic scene in the morning.

the son looks like a nice boy, but not sure he is annoyed with the lecture early in the morning. playing his PSP, nodding, answering...

all moms and dads care for their children. my mom and dad care for my life too. but like other parents, they don't understand the thought of youngster today. this may cause war in the future. for the daddy encouraging the child is important, talk to them like a friend, not a kindergarten's children. for mom, let ur child to be independent bit by bit. they need to know to take care themselves as you are not accompanying them forever.

Last, Happy Chinese New Year 2012 everyone!! Hope this will be a prosper Dragon year!! ^^

The Sun

like usual sitting in bus.. Going to campus.
watching all way scenery, enjoying the bite from crackers..

the SUN, I saw the sun fighting boldly..
like the ancient warrior.
surviving from the attacks.

the CLOUD, acting as a valiant rival,
ambushing the warrior with the Coverage skill.
plaster the Ray Power from the sun.

the Ray Power getting dimper,
the strength level of the warrior,
DECLINE rapidly..

Sky getting gloomy,
conquered by the Great Cover Power f the rival.
the End seem obvious.

there, The Sun Arouse.
Battle all its might,
faithfully on his Ultimate Power - the Ultra V.


Supernatural War happens,
the Sun launching Blood WARN.
recruiting the aye aye Wind.


the Team recruited.
here they are, combine forces.
Ultra V and Tsumami unite.


~~~~&(*#@#$%^~~~~
the spell bursts,
the Cloud trembles.


the Wind blows with 180Km Per Hour,
the Sun shines with 1000 Watts,
Fiuuuu~~ ~~ Pranngggggg~~~ ~~

the Cloud cracks, turning invisible in sky.
the Victory achieved.
the civilian cheer for the Triumph.

the brave brave Sun,
inspired my Day.

Happy NUT

How many people in the world is really happy?? In real, how many of those look happy is bleeding inside?? and how many of the kind that seem optimistic nut while crying sobbing at darken night??

Guess, human are all this kind of nut.

BUT, everyone..

this nut say to itself:
1. All is well, all is well.
2. tomorrow will be just fine.
3. this time will past.
4. I will be ok.
5. Don't be sad, it is worthless.
6. ... more and more on hypnotizing..

then, the nut will..
1. Gain confidence again.
2. smile brightly.
3. dress well.
4. look itself in the mirror,
    doubting..


Then, time flies...
the nut looks back, arhh.. this is NUT...
pretending to be happy S*^#

SO WHAT, everyone have this nut on them!!

Rebound, Rebounding

Do you had any crazy thoughts before? I had it. and It was a lot. well, thoughts rite.. so never accomplish it..

but, just very now, I got this crazy thought about getting fat.. very fat and becoming slim again. will it work?? haha~ i think no...

thinking like it will be fun/different if you having a path that you havent had it before.. then, the rational mind will stop me from doing things that people not ordinary to do. Although I'm not really care about people's opinion bout me but somehow I may be one of those that lose to the society's prejudice. 

hmm.. when I was in high school, my body's weight averagely on 47kg. during the after high school time, my weight gain to almost 50kg.. the fattest of me... make it clear first, my height is only 153cm, so 50kg already can make me look chubby! huhu~~ 

Go to matric, maybe cause first time left home, or nothing to eat there, my weight back to 47kg like usual.. miss that time, cause I don't had extra fat/lipid on my body. Since I entering Uni, my weight just silently increasing.. 47.3kg, 47,5kg,48kg, 48.6kg and 49kg... oh god... can't control it already.. haha.. should I just give up and go bigger... kinkingking~

Since this sem, coz my new roomate, Kate, bought a fridge and place it in our room, I'm starting to buy beverages to put in there.. it look wonderful as I can have my cool drinks anytime I want.. but then I discovered my weight also maintaining in 48-49kg.. more and more praised that I'm gettin healthier(fatter).. ahh... and my tummy, it visible again.

huhu~

Women. just care bout things like this. As I, it hard for me to get my old shape coz I really need carbohydrate now(final exam is near).. So, I better tell my sister to buy bigger size of clothes for chinese new year 2012 then.. wakaka..

Aaarhh.. It's ASSIGNMENTS!

every time, when the deadline of all those complex, challenging, tough, problematic assignments draw near, the patterns of all students (refer to the level of stressful) will showed up... it may be vary from each student.

some like to watch drama-marathon. korean drama like secret garden, 49 days totally perfect. if you are not into korea, then try out with english drama. drama like house, vampire diaries and nikita will make you absorbed in the fictional world. you may forget the pain from the reality that the assignments need to pass up soon. but, still the nightmare will still haunting you till the very end.

some like to eat. all kind of foods. meat, high carbohydrate thingy, junk food, sweet, chocolate. I personally recommend chocolate. Cadbury(back porest), Fellelo Rocher,  Plingles, Libena(Lemun), and Pokkah(Gleen tea), one of this must be with me if I need them. believe me or not, it does help to loose the tenseness of assignments. haha.. then, u'll realize that your weight also gaining.. but you can't do anything cos exam is coming and you don't have time to work out. back to hometown, everyone will praise that you surely can take care yourself.

some may like to drink. by meaning, alcohol. well, I'm not so sure bout the ladies, but men are enjoying it. clubbing till whole night young.. high till you not aware the submition date. Labuan is heaven. heaven for those drinkers, smokers. No tax. very cheap that even a student is capable to buy.

some like to escape. every student is stress. part of them manage it and go along. part of them, give up. deep inside, i wish i can escape. to the end, i just face it. not on my choice. that is part of the responsibility of a student. i have a friend, just back to her hometown. left nothing, no letter to the administration, lecturer. just message to few friend saying thank you and not coming back. her choice was chosen. still, wish her all the best there.

i think we just need to do our own part then. let the result rock!

Steve Jobs- Apple rules!

Few decades ago, people may think that an apple is just a fruit. it is sweet, crunchy and good for your health. No one ever realized that an Apple can brings other meaning to the life until a device so called Apple was released. it brings innovation to the world. MacBook, Ipod, Iphone and latest Ipad, those devices sold for a huge amount in the market, bringing the unique IT fashion. people now craving for it, as it function as multidevice and represents the first line of technology.

Steve Jobs had the most distinctive thoughts. from the creation of the devices till the fashion of his own. long black shirt and jeans as his fashion trademark. it just superb! Steve made someone that not using Apple also felt lost, and sad when he was gone. the influence is worldwide. 

the most inspire speech of him at Harvard. 

STAY HUNGRY, STAY FOOLISH. it is a deep sentence and the advice to the freshie graduated. well, steve also remind me, don't underestimate people who drop out from college. because steve proved that he can suceed even without a cert from a college. I respect him and I think everyone do. the creativity and innovation of him continue colors the world. R.I.P.