Happy NUT

How many people in the world is really happy?? In real, how many of those look happy is bleeding inside?? and how many of the kind that seem optimistic nut while crying sobbing at darken night??

Guess, human are all this kind of nut.

BUT, everyone..

this nut say to itself:
1. All is well, all is well.
2. tomorrow will be just fine.
3. this time will past.
4. I will be ok.
5. Don't be sad, it is worthless.
6. ... more and more on hypnotizing..

then, the nut will..
1. Gain confidence again.
2. smile brightly.
3. dress well.
4. look itself in the mirror,
    doubting..


Then, time flies...
the nut looks back, arhh.. this is NUT...
pretending to be happy S*^#

SO WHAT, everyone have this nut on them!!

Rebound, Rebounding

Do you had any crazy thoughts before? I had it. and It was a lot. well, thoughts rite.. so never accomplish it..

but, just very now, I got this crazy thought about getting fat.. very fat and becoming slim again. will it work?? haha~ i think no...

thinking like it will be fun/different if you having a path that you havent had it before.. then, the rational mind will stop me from doing things that people not ordinary to do. Although I'm not really care about people's opinion bout me but somehow I may be one of those that lose to the society's prejudice. 

hmm.. when I was in high school, my body's weight averagely on 47kg. during the after high school time, my weight gain to almost 50kg.. the fattest of me... make it clear first, my height is only 153cm, so 50kg already can make me look chubby! huhu~~ 

Go to matric, maybe cause first time left home, or nothing to eat there, my weight back to 47kg like usual.. miss that time, cause I don't had extra fat/lipid on my body. Since I entering Uni, my weight just silently increasing.. 47.3kg, 47,5kg,48kg, 48.6kg and 49kg... oh god... can't control it already.. haha.. should I just give up and go bigger... kinkingking~

Since this sem, coz my new roomate, Kate, bought a fridge and place it in our room, I'm starting to buy beverages to put in there.. it look wonderful as I can have my cool drinks anytime I want.. but then I discovered my weight also maintaining in 48-49kg.. more and more praised that I'm gettin healthier(fatter).. ahh... and my tummy, it visible again.

huhu~

Women. just care bout things like this. As I, it hard for me to get my old shape coz I really need carbohydrate now(final exam is near).. So, I better tell my sister to buy bigger size of clothes for chinese new year 2012 then.. wakaka..

Aaarhh.. It's ASSIGNMENTS!

every time, when the deadline of all those complex, challenging, tough, problematic assignments draw near, the patterns of all students (refer to the level of stressful) will showed up... it may be vary from each student.

some like to watch drama-marathon. korean drama like secret garden, 49 days totally perfect. if you are not into korea, then try out with english drama. drama like house, vampire diaries and nikita will make you absorbed in the fictional world. you may forget the pain from the reality that the assignments need to pass up soon. but, still the nightmare will still haunting you till the very end.

some like to eat. all kind of foods. meat, high carbohydrate thingy, junk food, sweet, chocolate. I personally recommend chocolate. Cadbury(back porest), Fellelo Rocher,  Plingles, Libena(Lemun), and Pokkah(Gleen tea), one of this must be with me if I need them. believe me or not, it does help to loose the tenseness of assignments. haha.. then, u'll realize that your weight also gaining.. but you can't do anything cos exam is coming and you don't have time to work out. back to hometown, everyone will praise that you surely can take care yourself.

some may like to drink. by meaning, alcohol. well, I'm not so sure bout the ladies, but men are enjoying it. clubbing till whole night young.. high till you not aware the submition date. Labuan is heaven. heaven for those drinkers, smokers. No tax. very cheap that even a student is capable to buy.

some like to escape. every student is stress. part of them manage it and go along. part of them, give up. deep inside, i wish i can escape. to the end, i just face it. not on my choice. that is part of the responsibility of a student. i have a friend, just back to her hometown. left nothing, no letter to the administration, lecturer. just message to few friend saying thank you and not coming back. her choice was chosen. still, wish her all the best there.

i think we just need to do our own part then. let the result rock!

Steve Jobs- Apple rules!

Few decades ago, people may think that an apple is just a fruit. it is sweet, crunchy and good for your health. No one ever realized that an Apple can brings other meaning to the life until a device so called Apple was released. it brings innovation to the world. MacBook, Ipod, Iphone and latest Ipad, those devices sold for a huge amount in the market, bringing the unique IT fashion. people now craving for it, as it function as multidevice and represents the first line of technology.

Steve Jobs had the most distinctive thoughts. from the creation of the devices till the fashion of his own. long black shirt and jeans as his fashion trademark. it just superb! Steve made someone that not using Apple also felt lost, and sad when he was gone. the influence is worldwide. 

the most inspire speech of him at Harvard. 

STAY HUNGRY, STAY FOOLISH. it is a deep sentence and the advice to the freshie graduated. well, steve also remind me, don't underestimate people who drop out from college. because steve proved that he can suceed even without a cert from a college. I respect him and I think everyone do. the creativity and innovation of him continue colors the world. R.I.P.  

Ribena kids.

Kami ialah kanak-kanak ribena! Cikgu Jo call us kanak2 ribena and since then we are the gang and cikgu jo is our leader. that is how our friendship becomes more close and close. with only 5 gang and a leader. and I want to write it.

Recalling all my memories with u making me feel so secure and happy. Ya, I'm saying u, tehC! we've been friend since kindergarten. Now, we having our own path to the future. I still keeping the letter u gave to me when I went to matriculation. 

BEING FRIEND WITH YOU IS THE MOST AMAZING THING HAPPEN IN MY LIFE. WE'VE BEEN FRIENDS SINCE LIKE I AM 2 OR 3 YEARS OLD UNTIL NOW AND HERE WE ARE GOING TO SEPARATE CREATING OUR FUTURE. WATEVER HAPPENS, YOU STILL WILL BE MY FRIEND, I MEAN REAL BEST FRIEND. AND I HOPE ITS FOREVER. I ALWAYS WISH FOR YOU TO BE THE BEST, TAKE CARE AND GOOD LUCK!!

Every time I read your's letter make me always remember that I have u, friend. make me feel blessed, and wanna cry coz I miss the time we had spent 2gather. I miss ur's laughter, gila2 n always protecting me (sometimes got bullied me too) hehe.. but I never regret for knowing u.

Mian, we are friend since kindergarten too. but we like buddy buddy coz indut introduce us in primary school.   luckily got her, if not, i may never close up with u. 其实我很想跟你讲谢谢你啊！陪我去sarawak。因为是你所以一路我都很放心。。你刚进大学所以加油啊！我们都一直在你心边。

Indut, hehehehe~~ kita paham2 ja la.. i heart u, u heart me.. keke.. every time I have something troubled me, you always listening. and advising that it'll be all right. cakap yg nonsense pun ko terima jugak.. hehe.

my bebeh cella, now becoming more prettie prettie~ but u always x tepati janji. hehe. where is my mp3???  ko la sifu sya yg start ajar sya gila2. tp nasib belajar 10% ja, if not I don't know who am I any more~~

actually every time we met, I want to said something. but never succeed coz over exited.. hehe~ I never regret my high school's life. coz  have u all accompany me and it is a great time with u guys. i miss u all, future Ribena ladies. muaxxxxx.. haha.

马来西亚，54岁生日快乐。

  一直以来我不是很懂为何马来西亚人一定要分种族来办事情。我是沙巴人，在一个叫根底咬的镇的KG.Bingkor长大。这里没有严重的种族歧视，大家都以一个种族的身份交谈。很畅快很心安。我的身份有点特别。爷爷奶奶是天津人，很久以前从中国来便扎根在Papar的Ulu Kimanis。外公也是从中国来和外婆（沙巴的Kadazan族）结婚，所以妈妈是sino-native。就这样，我是有1/4土著血统的华人。

  我很庆幸我是在这环境长大。从爸爸那里，了解我们天津人的礼俗。从妈妈这里，了解沙巴土著的文化。对我来说这不矛盾，反而我是骄傲呢！每一个族群都有自己独特的文化，语言就是很好的例子。天津话说起来好多翘舌音（rrrrr...）sabah话确有有趣的单词。（例如：nakesirit, 肚子痛时不小心把大便拉在裤子上）那些字都好难在另种语言直接的翻译。虽然不会说天津话，但听懂难不倒我，虽然不完全懂土著的语言，但简单的交谈因该没问题！

 读完中学后，到了labuan的matriculation就读。从一个小世界到了一个比较大的世界。Labuan Matriculation College 集合了沙巴，砂劳越和纳闽的学生，完成一年的课程就能继续读大学。认识了可爱和亲的砂劳越人也认识了更多豪爽的沙巴人。我的3个室友是回教徒但那一年就像家人一起度过。同学有讲有笑，各别得种族完全不是问题。有点想念那时光啊！现在到了大学，到了更大的世界，接触的人是全马的人。感触好多。

        身为沙巴人，我一直都很骄傲。作为马来西亚人，一个马来西亚要做到！大家都说那时一句广告词但希望不久的未来是个马来西亚的真正标签。马来西亚，54岁生日快乐！！

19 19 19!!!

what a wonderful age at 19! I born in 29 august 1991..  still have 9 days before my birthday.. really don't want to admit it. how can I be tua so fast like dis.. haa.. just part of my self don't wish to end my 19 like this!! I really love this age.. not because my academic excellent at 19.. not because I finally traveled at 19.. not because I got my DSLR at 19.. 19 just give me a lot.. from mentally.. emo~ emo~ macam mau cry saja.. haha.. so much things that I insisted, became clear to me.. either chose it or leave it or hang more tight like koala on it.. ><

I am a more on me person.. others hardly can influence me except they realllllly close with me n they have my heart with them. ^^ but lately keep thinking that, right, it is d true me.. why peduli others thinks bout u.. I'm actually don't care la.. but can't be a cool heart people forever right, care bout ur surroundings k.. trying.. well, depend..

20 20 20!! mature mature mature!! taking serious with my life.. oh my! had I been serious with my life before.. I wonder. 20 also means I need to grow up, grow more more more up.. adults is not easy u know??! sometimes I don't understand them..  not like I'm rejecting 20 but 19 is just good. I mean real good. ::><:: ahhh.. my 19..

19 is my craziest year.. n I become crazy at this age too.. (with my family only. hehe)  my mum said: nah.. tgok dia, datang sot liao.. sorry la mum, I'm trying to make our home more hilarious. although u'll keep saying I'm bising or sot.. but u'guys will be missing me when I'm back to labuan.



I watched a movie, called 19.. glad I'm watch it when I'm 19, so much young inside it.. recommend to u all.. my 19, will be missing u. thank you so much for giving me all the things that I had met, making me appreciate my 19 much. 19 is imperfect and imperfect is perfect for 19!!

if u want to watch it can click here. enjoy it! feel it-19!